Well, Not Anonymous anymore...
- I went to my first OA meeting today and I feel pretty good about how it went....
- I met some people who I can really relate to, I heard my story in their story....
- I am actively working on my head, since healing that could heal my body permanently.
- I am revising to Gastric Bypass and even though I was successful with my lapband, I could have been more successful with more control of my head hunger....
- I have been aware that I needed more help with the Psychological part of food addiction for a long time... I go to support group, hang with my BOOBs whenever possible, search out kindred spirits wherever I go, see my therapist as often as needed, etc.
- Now I am adding OA to that... one of my close friends told me that she tried OA and it wasn't for her, Too Much God.... I won't say who because her lack of faith doesn't define her, but I believe we all need a little more God in our lives, we are too weak to do this alone. I am too weak to do this alone.
- I have alot of tools to beat this Obesity thing... I am armed. I have 20+ years of successful dieting, I have 2+ years with a lapband teaching me proper portion control, I have Meditations from Geneen Roth's and other books, I have awareness of what are my triggers, I have strong nutritional knowledge from years of research and bossy nutritionists, and I am about to have another surgery to help me in these final battles to win this war... I might as well arm myself with God too. He turned water into wine, maybe he can turn cupcakes and ice cream into broccoli and greek yogurt.... Fingers Crossed!
I thought about attending an OA meeting here. I know a fellow bandster who was very successful and said OA was a large part of that. I am not religious though... and have a hard time getting past that part of the program... so for now I keep chug chugging on solo. ;)
ReplyDeleteThere wasn't alot of religious stuff... We basically just shared and chatted, and I met some new people in my area who I relate to... I was quite pleased. They do say the serenity prayer in the beginning and the "Our Father" prayer at the end but other than that... Nothing else religious. The serenity prayer is not from the bible but is very useful with addiction of any kind. It is just a supportive program, you can take a sponsor if you want to talk you out of the Krispy Kreme drive thru or whatever, I didn't do that yet... I don't think that part is for me. I really like knowing that I am not alone in my miserable love/hate relationship with food. And no one judges you there... which has been a problem here on the blogs for me, sometimes. Addiction takes you to an ugly place sometimes.... and It is important to see that you're not alone. We'll see if it is a right fit for me, I think I need electric shock therapy sometimes!
DeleteLove the support system you're putting in place for yourself - I know quite a few people who find OA very helpful. :)
ReplyDeleteMy boyfriend and I are thinking about going to a meeting. I wasn't sure if I should tell them about my band though...did you? Fear of being judged.
ReplyDeleteI was open and honest about my lapband and my upcoming Gastric Bypass... They have all struggled with weight issues, but the program is not a weight loss program... it is an addiction program that helps you deal with our head struggles through support and knowing you are not alone in your suffering. I didn't feel judged at all for my weight or my weight loss tools and options. It made me feel good to see that people of all sizes deal with food addictions.
DeleteI think I need to find a AO group! don't know how I'd go with the 'God' bit either... not being a religious peson an all.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy you find AO helpful.
Great post! OA is a great tool to add to your toolbox :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck Maria, I hope it works out for you!
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