Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Day Two.... Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

  1. Fear of losing the people I love... I lost my father to Pancreatic Cancer in 2003, and I was devastated, since I am a Daddy's Girl...and it was 46 days from diagnosis to death. My little sister died in her sleep suddenly in 2005, leaving a huge hole in our family... I watched my mom struggle with my Dad and sister's deaths, and I tried to imagine losing my George.... It is too much to bear... Hence, the very valid fear #1....
  2. Fear of gaining back the weight that I worked so hard to lose.... I failed long term on every diet I ever tried, no matter how successful I was while on it... once I get off it, I gain it all back and then some. I plateaued with my Lapband for over a year now, and now I am gaining... slowly but surely before I get my revision surgery. I didn't want to have to RELOSE... again! The Gastric Bypass is my last chance.... I can not fail! Hence, Very valid Fear #2...
  3. Fear of my addiction being stronger than me... I am addicted to food, but I have an addictive personality. The addiction wins some days but most days, I win. I am very fearful that that scenario will be reversed... and I will lose most days. Or trade this one addiction for another. I thought that this fear is different from the gaining the weight back one, since the addiction has nothing to do with my weight, except that eating the food in excess makes me gain weight, but I have to give into the addiction in order for that to be the case... The struggle is painful and even torturous whether I give in or not. Hence, my very valid Fear #3.


  1. Those are some real fears. I will eat when I get depressed. Good luck with your gastric bypass. And I'm going to start doing this. Thanks

    1. I have to check your 30 days out... It's been fun so far.