Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Celebrate each pound!

I want to celebrate each pound lost since I won't be finding it again but I can't help feeling overwhelmed by the amount of pounds I have to lose... I have been stress eating and I only lost 2 pounds in the last 13 days... If I have 50 pounds to lose... That would be fantastic, but I need to keep motivated and keep up the good work to get to my goals since my journey is still so long. I went to the gym on monday and I am going tomorrow too... every little bit helps right? It is less painful each time I go since there's less weight on my joints each time... Before I got weighed tonight, I saw myself in a mirror and thought... Wow, I really have lost weight. I was disappointed by the 2 pound loss even though I expected to haven't lost at all or worse gained. I really am trying to get control of this head hunger thing... It is the hardest part of my journey. i went to a support group the other night with Amy(Babbles of a Bandster)... people think that a bra is the only thing supportive to a boob but alot of times another boob will do. The support group was on "Are you failing your band or is your band failing you?" It was a great topic... and one I needed reminding of. Anyway, I wanted to access the damage of my low exercise/high carb lifestyle(I try to eat below 50g of carbs a day most days but I am okay with 100g... but sometimes... 112 or 104 etc... I don't want to ever go above 100, that's high enough for me to have a bad day.) Most of you are aware that I don't own a scale, I am over 350 so it is hard to find one that will weigh me, I can't even get weighed at my GP office since the scale goes up to only 350, the gym scale goes to 400 but I can't make much sense of it since it is one of them doctor ones with the balancing act... I think I've become too used to the digital era. Well, 13 days ago when I had to cancel my appt with the surgeon, I got desperate and went to the ER at my local hospital to see if they would weigh me... They have the same awesome scale that my surgeon has... well, I went again today... I am making a habit of going to the emergency room for my weigh-ins... They don't mind, or charge me or anything but I think it means that I should break down and get a scale of my own... And stop stress snacking... and go to the gym more times a week... maybe even 3 times... Big goals, but maybe they will lead to big results... Cross your fingers for me ladies.

14 comments:

  1. :-) everything is crossed!
    i lost another "pound" after chatting with you lol

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  2. Your doing amazing! Im so so proud of you.... its not easy and im not sure if it will ever be easy if you have a food addiction (i certainly do).

    I guess its all about telling yourself how strong you really are.... and you know for a fact that your bloody strong and can do this... but dont be afraid of the bad days because they are certainly going to happen to.

    You know all this though, your becoming a pro :D

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  3. Fingers, toes and eyes crossed for you!!! I understand your struggles with head hunger. It is terrible!!! We are here for you!!!

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  4. One day a a time. Its definitely not as easy as it seems to outsiders. I am only four weeks in and its a struggle.

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  5. I understand needing to keep up the motivation. It is so hard, though.
    I think you have a plan, though, that will really get you to where you wanna be.

    Only 9 days until we meet again!

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  6. Don't get too down trodden, you can do it are you ARE doing it.

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  7. I can't wait to have my wii fit.. so i can both have fun and physically benefit from it.

    plus... i get to have my progess tracked down too :)

    good luck on your weigh loss goal! :)

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  8. You can do this. Our journeys might be longer than most, but to be honest, the journey of losing isn't that much different than the journey of maintaining, so in that respect, everyone's journey is about the same!

    I got a scale at WalMart for about $40 that weighs up to 410 lbs, I think. Check around - I think you'll be surprised at how many scales go higher these days.

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  9. oh man... we all have these moments. I am glad to hear that you have a goo support system. And great goals... it's all about refocusing and staying with it. : )

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  10. Hang in there, you're doing great!!!

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  11. I know how you feel. I've lost 60 pounds. That's a lot! But guess what? I have over 100 more to go! It's so frustrating to think about!

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  12. Deffinitly crossing my fingers for you but remember even if your not loseing on the scale you are losing inches. Your doing a wonderful job!

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  13. You are doing so good! I love your FB pic of you in your 'Jared' pants.

    I think we all take things one day at a time...more than that is just too overwhelming.

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  14. Fingers and toes crossed, but I know you will be fine. Everything in life goes in waves. You'll be back on the upswing in no time. Especially if you keep accidentally going to zumba!

    I was out of commission for about a week post surgery, but I am back to comment obsessively on your blog.

    Your bra/boob comment made me snort!

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