Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Celebrate each pound!
I want to celebrate each pound lost since I won't be finding it again but I can't help feeling overwhelmed by the amount of pounds I have to lose... I have been stress eating and I only lost 2 pounds in the last 13 days... If I have 50 pounds to lose... That would be fantastic, but I need to keep motivated and keep up the good work to get to my goals since my journey is still so long. I went to the gym on monday and I am going tomorrow too... every little bit helps right? It is less painful each time I go since there's less weight on my joints each time... Before I got weighed tonight, I saw myself in a mirror and thought... Wow, I really have lost weight. I was disappointed by the 2 pound loss even though I expected to haven't lost at all or worse gained. I really am trying to get control of this head hunger thing... It is the hardest part of my journey. i went to a support group the other night with Amy(Babbles of a Bandster)... people think that a bra is the only thing supportive to a boob but alot of times another boob will do. The support group was on "Are you failing your band or is your band failing you?" It was a great topic... and one I needed reminding of. Anyway, I wanted to access the damage of my low exercise/high carb lifestyle(I try to eat below 50g of carbs a day most days but I am okay with 100g... but sometimes... 112 or 104 etc... I don't want to ever go above 100, that's high enough for me to have a bad day.) Most of you are aware that I don't own a scale, I am over 350 so it is hard to find one that will weigh me, I can't even get weighed at my GP office since the scale goes up to only 350, the gym scale goes to 400 but I can't make much sense of it since it is one of them doctor ones with the balancing act... I think I've become too used to the digital era. Well, 13 days ago when I had to cancel my appt with the surgeon, I got desperate and went to the ER at my local hospital to see if they would weigh me... They have the same awesome scale that my surgeon has... well, I went again today... I am making a habit of going to the emergency room for my weigh-ins... They don't mind, or charge me or anything but I think it means that I should break down and get a scale of my own... And stop stress snacking... and go to the gym more times a week... maybe even 3 times... Big goals, but maybe they will lead to big results... Cross your fingers for me ladies.