Warning:Not for the Prudish or Non-Chocolaholics...

Honey, I shrunk... Myself! 5 month bandiversary photos... I'm back from the Tour guide life to the Trophy Wife/Arm Candy life that I so enjoy... Actually, I had a great time... My family loves Disney, thank goodness. Since we live 1000 miles from them, it's a good thing they do so we see them more often... They come down and we go up which allows for family time like 3 or 4 times a year, sometimes more. This past week my Aunt and her family were here... My Aunt Donna is like an older sister to me, my Mother was 18 when she was born and Donna was only 4 when I was born... She is beautiful and has a great outlook on life. Things that I admire and try to emulate.... Well, at least the beauty thing is mostly genetic...LOL. Well, she and her husband John drove down with her oldest son Greg, his GF Jamie and their 3 y/o little girl Madison. I hung out with them at the theme parks alot and did alot of walking... which is a good thing because I also did alot of not so healthy eating, luckily the moderation thing is forced... by my band these days. I hope that the walking balances out the rest... because I have my followup at the surgeon's office this week and would like not to be going backwards or he'll make my band so tight that applesauce will get stuck from now on... The truth is... I am sick and tired of meat, meat, and more meat... I want the variety of an less healthy diet with the weight loss of a healthy one. I know I need my protein but I want something different, so I have been slippin' and slidin'... I am keeping my calories pretty low still but I need to get my priorities straight. I have been drinking a protein shake every morning so that's helped... so there's that. And I haven't broken any of my golden rules... no pasta, bread, or rice... and very little potato, if any. I don't drink anything with calories except my protein drink... but no matter what, sugar gets me. Chocolate seduces me like no other... I sure hope George isn't reading this... or I'll find him naked and covered in chocolate with cupcakes in each hand. Ooohh! I think I just turned myself on... I'm thinking 9 1/2 weeks, Mickey Rourke feeding the blindfolded Kim Bassinger...... and I'm back. Well, anyway, Food is Love? I guess... I mean, I have to say it to get past it... I love food. Which is highly problematic... for me. I want to eat even though I am not hungry... also a problem, and I don't want to eat the healthy options so I have to force myself to get the protein in, when I prefer junk food. Why? It's colorful and I love colors... Meat is too neutral... and the more colors you add, the more calories... What? Meat is boring without the flavorful sauces and side dishes.... Who? Me, aren't you listening? When? mostly at night, I always start the day right with a protein shake that's high protein, low-fat, low-carb, etc... and usually am not hunger for hours... when I am hunger again? mid afternoon... i eat a healthy meal protein first, green veggies after if I am still hungry... then at night, where's the junk? not Where's the beef? I need to figure this out... but first, I will find out my weight... and how much I've lost.... fingers crossed... I feel like the other shoe is going to drop... I mean, how can I not feel deprived and keep losing weight? I know I am eating less overall... but creme brule', really? a bite of this and a piece of that... It's been over 5 months since my surgery, and I put my 5 month photos at the top of this post!