Tuesday, August 10, 2010
I am human.... Perfectly flawed.
I guess I need to tell people what I believe... since an uninformed person seems to want to beat up on everybody. It's fairly simple really.... I believe I am beautiful, no matter thick or thin, I believe i can lose weight with or without my lapband... my lapband just keeps me on track and doesn't let me overdo it, I believe in God and that he is helping me do everything I put my mind to do, I believe that the support that I get from my lapband blog community is irreplaceable... Why? You ask. Not because you tell me it will be alright, not because you tell me I can do it, not because you tell me chocolate is not my enemy, not because you think I am inspirational, not because you condone my mistakes and missteps, but because you do all that... truly understanding where I am in my thought process, where I am in my journey, and where I am overcoming my addiction... because you are me. And this is about you not just me. When I make my food choices, I don't always make the right ones... I am human. I love cake, cookies, chocolate but I lost 74 pounds so far because most of the time being human is no longer a handicap for me... It is a blessing. There is no bad food and good food, and I am not a bad girl if I eat a brownie. I am a flawed human being and my beauty is in my imperfections. This is my life now... I am not on a diet and never claimed to be. I make the right choices most of the time and am now 150% more active. I am no longer a diabetic, my blood pressure and cholestrial are in normal range and I enjoy life more than I have in years... When I enjoy life, I celebrate my band because my band gave me my life back. With my band, I am a superhero... I can survive all measure of baked goods, and gooey treats. I do not try to trick my band... I do not overeat... and I do not binge in anyway. I do not believe that I am wasting my band. I do not take days off from having a band, because It is not possible. When someone says that they are taking days off from counting calories that doesn't mean that they are taking a day of from having a band... It is just talk, blog stuff, exaggerations which add to the entertainment value of our story... We are not supposed to count calories, it is just our way of informing ourselves about the choices we make. This uninformed person... who many of you have been harrassed by... doesn't know what it's like to have a lapband... but they do know what it's like to have a soapbox. Having a band is a way of life... not a diet. My success although different from non-bandsters, also comes from alot of hard work. I earned every pound I lost... my loss may have come easier today than my other losses in the past but the combination of my band and my knowledge about how to lose weight from years of losing weight... I know what works, we all do. Our bodies are all different... Women struggle to lose weight more that men do... that is a proven fact. My band is a helpful tool to help me lose weight and keep it off. It is not a magic wand. It doesn't lose the weight for me. I did not take the easy way out... because there is no easy way out. I can tell you if there was an easy way out, I would have found it... I did spend years looking.