Holiday Hell....

Well, Who doesn't look forward to the holidays.... Bright Lights, Big family gatherings, and feasting... I can't wait to see my family, but eating is always a big part of the celebration and my weight loss is mostly at a stall these days. I know it sounds like a broken record but I am going to start the new year fresh... with an aggressive diet and a little bit of exercise to boot. I am thinking about Weight Watchers.... Does anyone have any experiences with Weight watchers that they want to share? I think I need the structure of a diet once in a while to get back on track or jump start a stall... What do you think? Those of you who haven't given up on me... that is.

The Science of Giving up....

Well, I had pretty much given up.... 


My health was so bad after my last surgery that I had to struggle to live... then struggle to heal... then struggle to cope... With Depression, with disappointment, with hopelessness...

I need to accept what I cannot change and change the things I can.... I feel like crap alot. I am in pain, and still struggle with loss of breath from my left lung's collapse. I know what to do to lose weight.... and i have to do that without taking long breaks. I am not active, but I do make good choices with food. I need to make more good choices with food and force myself to get activated. 

Today, I went to my gyno for my annual checkup.... I didn't dread getting on the scale... I had accepted my fate. I was shocked that I had lost a little weight... I had stayed at the same weight for a long while after gaining some back. I was expecting a gain....or more of the same. Note to self.... Don't accept your fate!

Winter Blues.....

It's cold....

Philadelphia winters can be freezing cold...Cons!

1) Too cold to go out walking....
2) Black ice sucks...
3) You get wet all the time.... and not in a good way.
4) Alot of Water ice and ice cream places shut down for the winter...
5) Slush is... yucky!
6) I hate showering since your freeze your caboose off...
7) Not flip flop weather....
8) Bulky clothes make you look fatter...
9) Snow and ice may be pretty to look at but it sucks to drive, walk, or shovel....
10) Being cooped up makes you stir crazy....

Cold Weather ....Pros.

1)I love hats...
2) Boots are awesome too....
3)More sex....
4) Hot drinks are amazing...
5) Accessorizing rocks....
6) Fireplaces are so warm and cozy, and sexy.
7) White Christmas...
8) I love sweater dresses with leggings
9) Cuddling....
10) You appreciate beautiful sunny weather more.... 

Memories like this make it totally worth it.....