Wednesday, October 20, 2010
I lost 92 pounds and my mind... this week.
Ok... I just ate more than a 1/2 cup serving of Mint Chocolate Chip Ice cream... Can you say stress eating? The Phillies lost again... and it is tough to watch. They are so much better than they are playing. So I ate my feelings... luckily all I keep in the house is low fat, light, no sugar added Ice cream. I am not mad at myself for eating ice cream... I love ice cream, It's delicious. The reasons behind eating it... not so much. I have come so far and need to "get a grip".... Sometimes, we will struggle to pay our bills, but lots of chocolate will not help my bank account. Sometimes, I will grieve and feel sad that my Dad and my sister are gone.... but no amount of cake will fill that hole. Sometimes, I will feel under-appreciated by my Husband, Friend, mother, brother, Mother-in-law, and donuts won't cure my blues. next week, I will have been banded for 7 months, I am healthier than I've been in almost 10 years and I've lost 92 pounds so far as of last night. 92 pounds... Can you believe it? Stressed is desserts backwards... but I am stronger than the old me and I am not alone on this journey... You are there with me.