Niagara is for lovers!

We are really enjoying our time in Niagara Falls. So much that I have near passed out from exhaustion whenever we finally get back to the room. Hence the last of blog posts... that and less than useful internet signals. Anyway, We ate in the Revolving Dining Room at the top of the Skylon Tower... The restaurant turns 360 degrees and has breathtaking views of the falls. I ate a $25 burger (no bun) and broccoli. It was absolutely yummy! They say they make it from Filet mignon... I say best burger I ever had. The view was incredible! It was a great way to start our trip off. Then, I past by the Hershey Store... remembering that I hadn't had a piece of birthday cake, I was wondering if they had that yummy cake that I had at Hershey's Chocolate World in Hershey, PA... They had cupcakes instead but the same as the cake. I was getting one when the sales girl said "They're buy 3 get 1 free"... I asked my hubby if he wanted some and he said yes... I told myself I would have one that day and one another day...cut to me 4 hours later with chocolate crumbs down my shirt and icing on my face like a child at their first birthday party... I had eaten both friggin' cupcakes... I still have a crazy sweet tooth. My George ate both of his too but I promised myself I could resist... when I knew I couldn't. Anyway, I screwed up and got back on the horse... I have tried to eat right since that "Birthday" celebration night... but I had rye toast today at breakfast. I love rye bread and I know I'm not supposed to eat bread and it also gets stuck sometimes... but there i was, eating 1 1/2 slices with butter. Wow, I guess I have been less strict here and there on vacation but over all... I've tried hard to eat right. It is difficult to teach an old dog new tricks... Did I make myself the dog in this scenario? I am trying to retrain myself... to eat healthy all the time but is it wrong that I keep treating myself in moderation? Is it like alcoholism where they can never have any alcohol ever again?... Junk food... is my drug of choice. I can't kick it cold turkey! I need words of advice, here... should I be beating myself up everytime the chocolate wins? Can I expect to learn moderation only 3 months after surgery? Is it ok as long as I'm still keeping my calories low and still losing weight? I'm afraid I will fall back into old patterns...

Vacation Flip Flop!

Well... Thankfully We were able to switch our vacation around so we will be in Toronto first before Niagara Falls... Which means we will be missing the G8 & G20 political summits... Thanx to my husband throwing his weight around on the phone. So we will have a better chance of enjoying the city even though they are already preparing for the summit as we speak. I have been having trouble lately getting up to 1200 calories without turning to chocolate... which is delicious but I am afraid the chocolate will start me having carb carvings and getting that monkey off my back was the best thing for my weight loss. I hope that the sugar free chocolate won't have that affect but who knows... I think my doctor is going to say that I should be getting 1500 calories a day as well... since my weight is so high. I want to make this new lifestyle work for me as well as possible with as little sacrifice as possible. That way I can live this way from now on... and it is less like a diet. We are going to the movies today. I haven't worked out at all today either. So there's that... I am packing for our trip though... how many calories does that burn?